die young stay pretty

i may have just wrote a stupid message to someone whom i dont want to think it's stupid.

the end is near!!!

hey buddy
sorry we haven't been able to talk in forever
i am so extremely busy, never have i had this much work in my life
school is pressing down on me like crazy
im not free till the 22nd!! i cannot wait for that day.
it will feel so amazing
other than that nothing really going on
literally all my time is spent on homework
i dont even know where my time goes, just always always working

i will talk to you and catch up as soon as this whole
senior year thing is over!!
graduation is in 3 weeks!!!

i miss you. i love you. i hope you are doing well.
love me

the main thing on my mind these days in all the school work i have till i graduate
it's really crazy i basically have no life because of it
and im in a constant state of stress
not too fun.

but i am slowly stopping work
i almost done working cause i am ending may 20th
and in between now and then ill only really work like
10hrs a week. that's a positive

i cant wait to have time to just relax
debrief from everything
it will feel so good
i am going home around the 1st of june and
not doing anything till camp starts which could be boring but oh well

i cant believe i will be a COLLEGE GRADUATE in like 4 weeks!!!!
i just cant believe that
such a wierd label and thing for me to grasp
i know it's not going to hit me for a long long time

so your apartment.. it's just gonna be you and john??
and hows everything else going...
anything else new.

i miss you! and love you lots.
im off to the philly art museum tomorrow...wahoo!

such a great day.
warm sunshine, shorts and tee.
my new glasses
got some amazing juice
got to relax and not do work all day.
work turned out to be ok.
came home and am happy!!!

kelly and i talked alot when i got home
and went down our own memory lanes
it was hilarious...

all i can say is u.alex dean.and mrs.leroy
and om(steph's dad,surf it,caitlin hall,that time we got out of the car and danced at the wrong location, our antennas)
and the monkey's(fun markers and all)
and me being a rebel in second grade.

nothing to do
worked the weekend away
stress relieved a little bit
with free time and less stress i dont know what to do

the days are just ticking away
it's only time before i graduate.

thank you
you've but a new
skip in my step
a beat in my feet
joy in my jump
shake in my shimmy(shimmy in my shake)!!!

it's amazing how much i think about my trip
i miss it so much
i dont think anyone would recognize me if they knew me there and met me here
I MISS IT!!!

i hate being jealous but i always have been
and time changes nothing

maybe if i could see what some see
then i could get up and dance

im so glad im not a teenager anymore
all that just makes me laugh
and think what ive done and how far ive come
and how happy i am to be WHO i am now.

colored my little pony
wore pigtails
walked to get ritas water ice
went to the park for swings

all in a days work!
:)